hahaha yeah so youre missing it

guess what im missing?

a lot

please dont expect to play by your rules because you miss what you like

because you dont bring me back what like either

u_u

uhh im very very sorry when my friends feel bad

or are in a bad mood

and talk like theyre gonna kill themselves

this actually scares me

but

i

just

cant

do

anything

i have the greatest block when it comes to comforting anyone

that doesnt mean i dont care

i just really cant get over myself to say anything

i just want everyone to be happy ok?

i just described my crush

thinking of holly

holly is my crush

i will never find love…

oh god

i want him to be my boyfriend

i want to talk about him without sounding like a creepy freak from the internet

but like his legit girlfriend

why

oh why

i love the internet

i can write hahahaha lol omg

and dont be laughing at all

because its not funny

not for me

sorry but i dont find any of your funny times laughable at all

its just for you, not for me

oh god i really really really don’t like that one friend at all at the moment

ok not liking sounds pretty harsh but yeah

i can’t stand her

oh look i just got a text message right now that i’m talking about her

yeah guess what?? maybe i’m sleeping already

i think that’s what i’m doing!!

anyway… i basically hate how she’s all “ohhhhhh i argued with my boyfriend and now we hate each other” and the next moment he’s all she has and she won’t do anything but spend time with him (ok they only see each other like every two weeks or something but still)

i mean…yeah great you love and hate him or whatever but hey! look at me i don’t even have a boyfriend so i fucking don’t get anything of this

it just pisses me off!

then everyday is like a bad day for her

like only bad things happen to her

she’s not even doing anything

just sleeping until noon and staying home

i have a work to do

a work with shifts so i’m never home regulary

i lose all my friends even more because they only have time when i don’t

i’m socially awkward so i can’t make new friends and i def can’t find a guy who will love me

i hate talking about my feelings but want to get the tiniest bit of attention anyway

and i get nothing

i never got anything

i’m just always the one that has to listen to how bad everyone is doing and i fucking hate it

i don’t know anymore

i wanna curl up in a ball and forget the world

lol am i a bad friend when i so dont care about another problem of them yet again??

maybe its because i hate comforting people

maybe its because i hate talking about problems myself

maybe its both

idk what it is

but whatever was between my friend and me all the time

is somehow gone?

its sad really

but i cant say how much of the stuff shes talking about bores me

and im all woah i dont caaaaaare

its not always like that but it gets more and more

yeah what do what do

oh god somebody please fuck me

oh bluh now shes all bla bla whine whine again

but playing like idk “i dont wanna bother you with that so i wont tell you how bad i feel”??

just not realizing that she just told us that somethings wrong??

srsly that pisses me off so badly

why do my friends bother me so much lately?

its sad